assignments & more assignments #265

why do i always leave assignments to the day or the day before its due?

when i've technically had nearly a month holiday.

sigh.

i have an assignment due at 5pm tmr

and the stupid thing is that its supposed to be monash's holiday week this week

and lecturers want us to go into uni and hand in the assignment in hardcopy

why?

it would be soooo much more convenient for the approx 200 students to submit it online

but no

the lecturer have to favour themselves and force everyone to come in.

i also have an assignment due friday at 5pm,

but at least thats online.

sigh.

sigh.

sigh.

#225 hi!

(i look really asian in this photo. i think the guitar in the back saves me just that little though :) p.s. i'm holding my fringe down, if you're wondering)

actually, i've had a pretty shittay week

with the stupid assignment and all

and i stayed at home all week

except on wednesday

but even on wednesday i went home early for dinner

and i don't know

i think i've been in a very depressive mood this week

especially after that first draft for my research report

it was complete shit what i wrote, i tell you

i was in tears last night.

seriously.

it was that shit.

i'm just hoping they'll at least pass me, so that i can pass this hurdle

i'm pretty sure they will, because then like there's no point it me doing the final report if i won't pass because of this stupid draft.

but at least now i can fix the super massive holes and pretty much anything that didn't make sense in it. which is most of it.

though i should work on it, so i can show something more decent to my supervisor next week.

but i think it would be easier now

because the problem with me is that starting of reports and writing

i alsway know what to start.

becasue now i have 1000 words to work with

or at least 500 words that could be useful, and it probably wouldn't be so hard.

hopefully.

i was pretty depressed this morning as well,

(or should i say midday/afternoon)

because i was alone most of the time.

though today i got much better at FAT (friday afternoon training)

and going to CU and to prayer night

i feel much better now.

on another note, i voted already today.

because i have work tmr.

#166 switched off

totally did not study for my last exam today

when i really should have

but i'm also having fun watching my fellow pharm people

stressing over micro

and that everyone hates helen as well.

though, i have to do it next year

which will not be fun

at all.

#161

i must again point out

I HATE YOU HELEN!

you and your stupid two wrong why qs.

also, the exam was clearly weighted on the topics you taught

where was all the information flow qs

there was only one.

in the whole exam,

and that was 6 lectures worth.

gah!

hopefully, my short answer pulled me through the exam.

i'm pretty sure i passed but still.

and i can't believe i have to endure her again next year if i do pass.

past 'i-hate-helen' posts: apr 22 10 & jun 22 09

& unappreciation society

#153

Think Outside The Box
Originally uploaded by Abdulrahman`ρнσтσgяαρнєя 

this.
is pretty cool.

gah, this studying for exam business is doing my head in.
there's so many conditions i need to learn
and ALL their treatments
i swear theres like 20 conditions i need to learn
and then there's at least 5 treatments for each.
and the treatments i need to learn their mechanisms
and how to use them
and their dose
and their side effects
etc. etc.
and this is just for one subject.
GAH!
dislike.

#148

gah,
i hate studying.
today, i woke up at 8am
got to the library at 8.30am
and then finished studying and left at 8.40 pm
and then i'm going to do it all again tmr
and for the next few weeks
:(

and there's SOOO much to study

:(

also, sorry for being boring lately.

i'm not seeing anythig interesting.

because

I'M STUDYING ALL THE TIME!!

haha

anyway, i really like this clip :)

from toy story 3

panic attack #117

had a mini panic attack today
maybe even a full blown one
it was really weird
cos i hadn't really had one that bad before
i usually just get really anxious, or nervous
where my heart races
but its usually just over uni
or exams or whatever
(yeah, my mini breakdowns slash freak outs before exams are quite frequent. just ask jacky)
but this was different
this was like heart full on racing
feeling jittery
and it felt kinda difficult to breathe for a while
and even slightly nauseated
and it lasted like 20 minutes
but no,
it wasn't over uni stuff though
more important stuff.
but still, i have no idea why i had a panic attack over it.
because it wasn't like i was confronted with it or anything.
it was the strangest thing.

hmm.

wig lady #106

i have a few things to talk about today,
so here goes:

1. so today on the train
(which was delayed)
there was this lady
and at first glance
there's nothing wrong really
but then after observing her again
i realise there was something wrong with her hair
it looked like this
her hair was very
lets say
volumous
and all this one brown colour
it also is to be noted
that appart from her hair
she looked quite old
and after even closer inspection
i saw grey hairs underneath
and thats when i realised she was wearing A WIG!
which i found quite funny
cos i'd never seen anyone is real life trying to pull off an actual wig



2. i got results back from this midsem of a subject i'm repeating
and the test was pretty much the same as last years
and i studied beforehand
so how on earth did i do worse than i did last year
wth?
very depressed since i found out.
gah,
i hate this subject so much
i hate you, helen!!
:(
(though it isn't just me, there's an 'un-appreciation' society for her on facebook)

3. on a brighter note
my scholarship got paid through
yay!

4. oh, and jiali
i watched masterchef today
:)
haha.

♥

questions questions questions #87

my mum asks too many questions
as it she does it in a mothery way
do you want this for dinner or this?
do you want to bring this for lunch tmr?
do you want to bring a banana to work?
this happens like EVERYDAY.
its very annoying
and like she thinks it would be beneficial to me
but she just makes everything more stressful
especially the times when i'm uber stressed out
and she asks all these questions
and i'd be like i don't know, i don't care
I DON'T WANT TO THINK ANYMORE
:(

yes.

stresshead #90

sorry being slack these days
i think i'm stressing myself out
because i really want to catch up on uni work
and well
the stressing is doing more bad than good
& i get stressed out quite easily
i think about things a lot
and thus stress

sometimes
if i'm not sure that everything is good for the next day
as in i've packed my bag
and sometimes even choose my clothes
so i dont have to do it in the morning
and sometimes when i go to sleep
and i remember that i didnt put something in my bag
i actually have to get up
and put that thing in my bag
cos i stress out that i will forget the next day
if i don't do that,
then i can't sleep.

sigh.

so excuse me,
if i am a bit late with posts.
sorry.
and sometimes i leave the post blank to fill in later
cos i can't think of anything to write
or i'm just either too tired or too lazy.
but bear with me

(that bare looks weird there, is it bear or bare? damnit. cos bare with me, looks weird too. the second bare, sounds like some nakedness going on. but the first, well as in grizzly bear. hmm.)

ok.
BYE.

freak out #76

sorry my post is so late
i had a stressful incident last night
which prevented me from posting
and by stressful
i mean i had a little freak out
but all is cool now
cos i fixed it.

yeah my netbook usb ports didn't work at all yesterday
then i freaked out cos i hadn't registered my warranty yet
then i tried to make an account with acer australia
and i filled in everything
but it kept telling me that i didn't fill in the post code
thus i couldn't register
and yes
thus
very stressful
i managed to fix it but updating the usb drivers
even though there wasn't anything to update
and this was at like 12.30 last night
and cos i wanted to sleep early since i had to wake early for my 8.30 lecture
but i still hadn't printed my lecture notes
so i slept late yesterday
:(

but it's all good now.
:)

stresssssssssssssss

booooo
i don't understand why.
every time things start looking ok for me and becoming a little stress free
something always has to come back up to make me FULLY stressed.
(& make me want to curl up into a ball and cry)

i was having such a good morning today
good in a sense that i was totally on the ball
studying for the test i had today
i was so alert and everything.
and like, i'm finally able to get back into studying and everything.
then late on in the day i realise i have something due the next day
which i couldn't even get signed up for
like, i need to have permissions to access it
and i had problems with that
and i'm not sure if they'll let me do it anymore
and its a HURDLE requirement.

and then
i get a friggin email for some course coordinator thing
saying i have not handed in my 'student at risk' form
(seriously thats what its called)
saying they sent me a letter in july and everything
but i never even got the damn letter
sigh.
at least she gave me an extension though
so i think it will still be ok.
but i am VERY stressed.
especially about the hurdle requirement thing.
i don't want to fail another subject
damnittttttttttt.

:(

break out.

sorry i haven't blogged lately
seriously stressed out with exams
and i still have a week of intense studying
my last exam is next monday

but i have a massive breakout on my face now
i swear like 6 pimples turned up all at once
cos i'm so stressed out
but its ok, they're small ones
but i have never broken out this bad before
hmph.

i should go now
i have an exam in 3 hours
:(
so not ready for it.