assignments & more assignments #265

why do i always leave assignments to the day or the day before its due?

when i've technically had nearly a month holiday.

sigh.

i have an assignment due at 5pm tmr

and the stupid thing is that its supposed to be monash's holiday week this week

and lecturers want us to go into uni and hand in the assignment in hardcopy

why?

it would be soooo much more convenient for the approx 200 students to submit it online

but no

the lecturer have to favour themselves and force everyone to come in.

i also have an assignment due friday at 5pm,

but at least thats online.

sigh.

sigh.

sigh.

#225 hi!

(i look really asian in this photo. i think the guitar in the back saves me just that little though :) p.s. i'm holding my fringe down, if you're wondering)

actually, i've had a pretty shittay week

with the stupid assignment and all

and i stayed at home all week

except on wednesday

but even on wednesday i went home early for dinner

and i don't know

i think i've been in a very depressive mood this week

especially after that first draft for my research report

it was complete shit what i wrote, i tell you

i was in tears last night.

seriously.

it was that shit.

i'm just hoping they'll at least pass me, so that i can pass this hurdle

i'm pretty sure they will, because then like there's no point it me doing the final report if i won't pass because of this stupid draft.

but at least now i can fix the super massive holes and pretty much anything that didn't make sense in it. which is most of it.

though i should work on it, so i can show something more decent to my supervisor next week.

but i think it would be easier now

because the problem with me is that starting of reports and writing

i alsway know what to start.

becasue now i have 1000 words to work with

or at least 500 words that could be useful, and it probably wouldn't be so hard.

hopefully.

i was pretty depressed this morning as well,

(or should i say midday/afternoon)

because i was alone most of the time.

though today i got much better at FAT (friday afternoon training)

and going to CU and to prayer night

i feel much better now.

on another note, i voted already today.

because i have work tmr.

#219

new layout, again.
i really quite like this one
because it looks pretty pro
:)
and i spent forever on it.

because it originally it looked like the picture below:

but i'm a bit annoyed that i can't change the rate that the thing slides

i think it goes too fast.

but oh well.

btw, my wallpaper came from here

in other news,

i've been really bad this semester

i haven't really done any uni work

except for my research project

and even that i'm not on top of.

and even though i know i haven't done anything

because i don't feel like it

i end up continuing to not do anything.

gah, it sucks.

and i'm definitely a person

that if i'm in the rhythm or in the zone of doing something

i can do it for agesss

but when i'm not

i just can't at all.

sigh.

♥

p.s. HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY CLARA!

i♥you.

#210

finally finished my hypothesis

but i'm pretty sure its utter crap

because i couldn't really reconfirm with my supervisor today exactly where i'm going with my topic

so hopefully my hypothesis isn't too narrow

and that i can write 2000 words on it.

or that i can say

yes, my hypothesis is correct

but i can add more stuff

to fill space.

hopefully.

and what's stupid about this is:

the 1000 word draft is due in two weeks

but the 2000 word draft is due one month after that.

i wish it were reversed.

because surely if you've done your first draft

you'll need a bit less time to do your final copy.

and you need a bit more time to draft your first copy.

sigh.

#207

had quite an interesting ethics tutorial today at 9am
it wasn't as bad or as scary as i thought it would be
also, because i hadn't actually read all the reading material beforehand
so i was a little fearful
but the tute was more or less just discussing different scenarios
which i thought was interesting

but another issue that came up was about the 'anti immunisation' groups forming
and all that
and well, i agree with my tutor (not that anymore in our group disagreed)
i'm quite against the anti immunisation groups
or better said, i am for immunisation of adults and children
because the anti groups
all their views stem from emotion and pretty much no evidence
because yes, their may be some side effects from immunisation
but how much worse would contracting 'whooping cough', 'small pox', 'tetanus', 'hep B', etc. compared to this
sure it might be a bit of pain, arm tenderness and headache, etc.
but compared to what you are immunising against
thats nothing.

and compared to the very low percent of actually recieving a serious adverse effect from immunisation
not immunising your child, puts them at higher risk of contracting these relatively serious diseases
which is much worse.
and actively choosing to put your child at risk,
sounds to me like bad parenting.
(i do emphasise the 'actively choosing' bit, eg. when children get vaccinated at school refusing to sign the form of consent. i do not mean it as being: not having children vaccinated because of lack of access) .

#196

so i just found out what my research project report will be

along with which supervisor i have

and the topic is: What key properties, that can be calculated from a molecular dynamics simulation, can be used to determine the phase(s) present within a liquid?

Find examples of their utilisation in the primary literature to illustrate their validity.

i know they said that it would be specific

but like

how specific is this

i don't even know what i'm supposed to do with something like this.

i hardly know what the sentence means.

sigh.

i'm also supposed to meet with the supervisor tmr

but i've only been told who it is

but i have no idea where they are

damnit

i hope i don't make a fool of myself

because i have no idea what i'm doing

sigh.

ok bye.

:( uni #195

first day of uni of the semester today

i skipped the first two lectures

because i was still at clara's

and still uber tired

i had to endure some bs class for two hours

when she could have given us the lecture notes

instead of slowly frying our brains

but anyway.

i also bought tegan and sara's sainthood yesterday

because it was $15

haha

i've only listened to it a couple times

it's ok so far.

though, i might need to listen to it a bit more to get into it.

this is also a uber cute version of them singing 'alligator'

daniela sent it to me

they changed the lyrics :)

so cute.

iheartyouall♥

#193

Originally uploaded by WOLF CHOIR
i love this photo.
because its kind of random
but cute at the same time.
i also love photos that have good light.
i love the sunlight shining through across the field in this.

i also just read the course outline slash guidelines

for my research subject

and now, i counting on this subject to hopefully be my best mark

because i've figured

that i don't do well on exams

but since this subject is zero exam

and most of it is written

with 80% of it based on the written

(and 20% is based on "discussion with supervisor" HAHA)

and my best marks come from my assignments.

that this is my best chance to get a HD

if i try hard enough.

i also realised that my final report is to be submitted on september 16

which means i finish that subject in mid september

which is pretty sweet.

and thus, i can focus on my other two subjects

and study them well for exams.

and hopefully do better on exams as well.

that's what i'm hoping for anyway.

♥

it sucks when your best semester of marks came from your first year, first semester.

it's all gone down hill from there.

sigh.

my results are kind strange

the range of difference across all of them this sem is only like 2 marks

here are my results 59, 60, 61, 61

sigh.

i thought i did well enough on two of them to get a D

apparently not.

sigh.

sitting and studying for exams is definitely not my forte.

how much i hate exams #149

Day 79 - f o c u s
Originally uploaded by margolove

what i need to do :(


but anyway,
THIS is how much i hate exams:

october 30, 2008
may 28, 2009
may 31, 2009
june 17 2009
june 15 2009
october 5, 2009
november 5, 2009

sigh.

and i'm pretty sure
i end about 40% of all my posts with
'sorry, have to study now'

also,
whilst i was looking through my old blog
i came across this one
so, apparently jiali
you called me up once in yr 12
to find out the molar mass of zinc, copper and iodine
LOL.

ok,
back to study now
;)

#148

gah,
i hate studying.
today, i woke up at 8am
got to the library at 8.30am
and then finished studying and left at 8.40 pm
and then i'm going to do it all again tmr
and for the next few weeks
:(

and there's SOOO much to study

:(

also, sorry for being boring lately.

i'm not seeing anythig interesting.

because

I'M STUDYING ALL THE TIME!!

haha

anyway, i really like this clip :)

from toy story 3

#141 bucks

currently listening to my lectures
and this one lecturer keeps saying
380 million BUCKS
but it sounds so weird
i mean you can say
10 or 20 bucks or even 50 bucks
100 may even be pushing it
but billion is too big a number to associate with bucks
yes,
i prefer dollars instead.

ok, back to lectures now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !! #131

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACKY!

i love you :)

you're so OLD!

old

old

old

:D

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so today, i feel like i've achieved a lot

even though i really have only achieved a little

well, i did finish an assignment from 9 am to 12 pm

even though i was supposed to do it last night

but decided to take a nap at 2am

and woke up at 6am

so proceeded to sleep to 8.30am

THEN woke at 9am to do my assignment.

luckily for me, it was a relatively easy assignment.

one bit was to pretty much write a resume.

so yes.

i also did a presentation/group assignment thing today.

but that was relatively ok.

but i was only worth 2% of my final mark anyway.

yeah, so i managed to do two assessment tasks today.

but i feel like i didn't do much

because i didn't really put much effort into either of them.

lol.

taking jacky out for dinner tmr

can't wait to go eat dessert

;)

♥

p.s. whoever posted on post #129 surprise, thanks. but it was posted as anonymous, so i don't know who are.

#130

i can't wait for exams to be over & done with

can't wait to go on church camp & summit

straight after exams.

i feel a bit burnt out from uni already

i haven't really touched any work for a week

and i'm completely clueless about what we're currently learning.

but this happens pretty much every semester.

meh.

♥

wig lady #106

i have a few things to talk about today,
so here goes:

1. so today on the train
(which was delayed)
there was this lady
and at first glance
there's nothing wrong really
but then after observing her again
i realise there was something wrong with her hair
it looked like this
her hair was very
lets say
volumous
and all this one brown colour
it also is to be noted
that appart from her hair
she looked quite old
and after even closer inspection
i saw grey hairs underneath
and thats when i realised she was wearing A WIG!
which i found quite funny
cos i'd never seen anyone is real life trying to pull off an actual wig



2. i got results back from this midsem of a subject i'm repeating
and the test was pretty much the same as last years
and i studied beforehand
so how on earth did i do worse than i did last year
wth?
very depressed since i found out.
gah,
i hate this subject so much
i hate you, helen!!
:(
(though it isn't just me, there's an 'un-appreciation' society for her on facebook)

3. on a brighter note
my scholarship got paid through
yay!

4. oh, and jiali
i watched masterchef today
:)
haha.

♥

#104

surprisingly, i have not seen any masterchef yet
i mean i love the show
and knowing me
and how much reality tv i watch
its surprising.
but i guess its only been two eps so far
but you know i have tests and things
still another to study for
sigh
i have to listen to another 8 lectures
for my test on thursday
:(

on another note
i really like packet soups
like i used to have them a lot
but i knew they are bad for me
cos of the insane amount of salt in them
but in times of stress/way-too-much-studying
they're the best
ahaha

♥

#103

so i have a test tmr
so i'm going to sleep early
and wake up early
and go to uni early
to study for my test.

wish me luck :)

(on the test i mean, not the sleeping early bit) ;)

stresshead #90

sorry being slack these days
i think i'm stressing myself out
because i really want to catch up on uni work
and well
the stressing is doing more bad than good
& i get stressed out quite easily
i think about things a lot
and thus stress

sometimes
if i'm not sure that everything is good for the next day
as in i've packed my bag
and sometimes even choose my clothes
so i dont have to do it in the morning
and sometimes when i go to sleep
and i remember that i didnt put something in my bag
i actually have to get up
and put that thing in my bag
cos i stress out that i will forget the next day
if i don't do that,
then i can't sleep.

sigh.

so excuse me,
if i am a bit late with posts.
sorry.
and sometimes i leave the post blank to fill in later
cos i can't think of anything to write
or i'm just either too tired or too lazy.
but bear with me

(that bare looks weird there, is it bear or bare? damnit. cos bare with me, looks weird too. the second bare, sounds like some nakedness going on. but the first, well as in grizzly bear. hmm.)

ok.
BYE.

artsy fartsy.

ok, back to normal post.
i do sometimes think that my mind is more art than like science/fact
like all the stuff that i really love
are a form of art
(as in music, photography, etc.)
i really do wish that i wasn't born into an asian/pushy family
cos i know that if i weren't
i'd be doing some form of arts
instead of pharm

like i'm seriously considering
if i fail another subject
to just take a year off next year
and just do my failed subjects
and study a course on photography
but then my dilema is that fact that
next year is our first placement year
and i want to go to placement with my friends
cos it will be fun.
maybe.

secondly,
quite glad today.
i seriously thought that i wouldn't get my scholarship anymore
cos i failed a subject
and since the payment had still not come yet
so i just assumed that they weren't paying it to me
but monash sent me an email saying it will be there by the end of the week
yay.

i currently have a mud mask on
and its seriously working
i can feel my facial muscles tightening by the second.
i think its a good thing
but i'm not sure
lol
:)

ok,

adiós!

stresssssssssssssss

booooo
i don't understand why.
every time things start looking ok for me and becoming a little stress free
something always has to come back up to make me FULLY stressed.
(& make me want to curl up into a ball and cry)

i was having such a good morning today
good in a sense that i was totally on the ball
studying for the test i had today
i was so alert and everything.
and like, i'm finally able to get back into studying and everything.
then late on in the day i realise i have something due the next day
which i couldn't even get signed up for
like, i need to have permissions to access it
and i had problems with that
and i'm not sure if they'll let me do it anymore
and its a HURDLE requirement.

and then
i get a friggin email for some course coordinator thing
saying i have not handed in my 'student at risk' form
(seriously thats what its called)
saying they sent me a letter in july and everything
but i never even got the damn letter
sigh.
at least she gave me an extension though
so i think it will still be ok.
but i am VERY stressed.
especially about the hurdle requirement thing.
i don't want to fail another subject
damnittttttttttt.

:(